Monday, October 25, 2004
sighz.
Physics prac is tml... xianz...
I dunno wat to do now, the others are playing mahjong... and they're gambling wif money...
Sighz. So now i'm alone and isolated and I have got nth to do, yet I cant concentrate on studying coz they are like not making any noise at all...
I once thought I would nv tok to him anymore but I guess it is somehow inevitable...
Now I look at everyone, everything, I feel nth much...
Sometimes I feel as if there’s nth else fer mi to lose...
Once they move out, I'll be fighting alone... In this unwelcoming household...
In a war that there will be no one out there to help mi at all...
Well... I’m jus sprouting nonsense now... wat else can I say...
Not in the mood fer studying at all... wat else can I do... be a fake person again... someone nobody noes... someone nobody understands...
"no can can understand u bcoz u nv let anyone understand u."
.....
.....
is that really true??
10/25/2004 03:06:00 PM
Friday, October 22, 2004
well~~~
went fer the open houses today.... comments are...
RJ: no passion, rude, self-indulgent, bimboistic ppl, superficial
HC: ppl with hell NO MANNERS at all.... mei jia jiao... yuck.
so, conclusion:
SUCK!
man, it was really the worst outta the worst... compared to the other jcs i think that two was really... down in the dumps... so wat if they're the best academically? e ppl suck!! argh. think most ppl felt the same way. heard complaints all along the way. and did i mention that hc ppl no manners?? bleh. wow i'm really amazed... at how horrible the ppl are. at this rate i would ratehr be born as a dim wit den be forced to mix wif ppl like THAT. yuck.
10/22/2004 09:51:00 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
love~~~
today is pretty uneventful...
i realised that i have changed a lot in the past year... i dunno whether it is for good or for bad...
i just noe that now i seem so unfeeling to everything... or at least, the things i used to feel so violently for.....
but well nvm... i guess it's better for me this way...
went scouting for a lotta blog skins today.....
saw a lotta nice ones so may be changing the outlook of my blog aldoh i really like the way it is now... :( well let me make up my mind slowly... :)
and yes, i lOve all my frenz, my ccd clique darlings, my class clique ppl, my pot clique teammates... i LoVe all of u... *muackz*
how can i describe how i feel now... it resembles nothingness yet i feel much better abt many things. many of my past fears are now gone. i am at peace wif others, wif myself.
well, in most cases anw....
>.<
10/21/2004 09:42:00 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
mi and some of my class clique ppl...
10/19/2004 10:50:00 PM
skip beat, press pix fer bigger images
10/19/2004 10:48:00 PM
yoz
haha turned out i found my pencil AND found a cure fer my dying charger...
everything is going alright...
yes gal tt's the spirit,
FiGhT oN...
u can do it
haf faith in urself,
haf faith in God.
God bless everyone!!
10/19/2004 10:45:00 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
mikagami tokiya
10/18/2004 11:33:00 PM
a new phase... named... mugging...
haha ok ok i'm quite happy despite the fact that my fone batt jus died... as in... for eternity... worn itself out... sighz. wat can u expect from a second-hand fone anyway??
and yes! SE says she loves me... wahaha... but of coz... she's my daughter leh...
and somehow i'm not as erm... sad as i thought i would b...
fer good?
or fer bad??
haha but well i was really in a bad mood jus now... even hung up on my dear se... so sorry daughter!! ;) i noe u luv me too much to b angry at me...
well and my dearest se make sure u cheer up k!! ;) luv ya too!!!
wel... 14 more days to start of prelims!!!
JIA YOU!!!
10/18/2004 10:23:00 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
yosiiia!!!!!
jia you she hui!!!
jia you everyone!!!!
all the best!!!!
lets show everyone:
WE CAN DO IT!!!!
10/17/2004 10:56:00 PM
today...
is my last official day of slacking...
until the end of o's...
well... wat can i say...
i'm like waking up at 5am to mug tml coz SOME PPL jus dunno how to give their own 'daughters' some peace so they can STUDY fer their o's....
sighz nvm...
jus added in the guestbook today...
ya rite...
like anyone will sign the bloody thing at all...
i look at my frenster account....
110 frenz...
i only really noe like less than half of dem...
wat's the pt, really?
haha....
10/17/2004 10:39:00 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
hmm...
great. go which jc? with my sucky grades nothing seems possible. CJ? cant stand the principal. MJ? sister say not good but frenz wanna go. TJ? NJ? VJ? wanna go but grades not good enough. too many things happen. how to haf faith? how to deal with it? now i jus look at things, and rarely deal wif dem. someone told me that the reason no one understands me is bcoz i dun let others understand me. is tt true? sometimes i jus dun wanna probe into things too much. not after wat happened. confusion. i'm baffled. lost. waiting fer someone to save me.
