Tuesday, September 26, 2006
........
tomorrow's the day they're moving.
near, yet far. my uncle has tried to console me, told me i could go over any time, but i guess it's really different, still. is there really space for me? can i really fit into their family? their family. that is already sufficient explanation.
this day has finally come, and i don't feel much. sadness? not really. happiness, excitement? definitely not faced with the mess we have to deal with but nobody really wants to deal with, it really sucks. sucks big time. if you don't wanna do your part of it, i'll do my part of it and i'll claim it my territory. sucks sucks sucks. go away.
i'm just an outsider anywhere i go...
arguing again. quarreling again. shouting, screaming, yelling. what the hell.
go away. shut the hell up.
i wish i could have my own room, so i can just slam the door shut and stay in my own sanctuary...
shut up shut up shut up shut up.
i feel like thrashing about. i want to flop onto a bed in a room where there is no one else, to carry out my own thinking, or to carry out my non-thinking.
but i hate this place. hate this place hate this place hate this place.
it's a jail. a cell. a prison. an entrapment. i hate this place hate this place hate this place.
i hate this 'home'. hate this 'family'. i hate it all. i hate life. i hate exams. i hate school. i hate being so bitter. i hate the hatred in me. i feel like strangling all those people that i so despise. ok, strangling that person i so despise. go to hell. you gave me hell, you should get hell in return. die, and let your stupidity die with you. get your bloody face out of my sight. i never want to be acquainted with you, the one who ruined my childhood, the one who i so hate.
i've had enough.
shut up shut up shut up.......
and die.
9/26/2006 05:05:00 PM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
is it my imagination, or am i fading away from your life?
this is scaring me.
i can't think properly.
or, am i thinking too much again?
9/06/2006 11:17:00 PM
Monday, September 04, 2006
tata!~
prelims is coming next monday. O_O
reality kicking in?
sadly, no.
i need stress!! i need motivation!!! and i can't get enough of Kim Sam Soon!
rewatched it for the fourth time today and i'm still not getting enough of it! T_T Someone help me... kim sunah and hyun bin are like, great artists!! XD
alright, one more round of kim sam soon after prelims, and then i can watch all i want after a's... already got 2 people i'm 'scheduled' to watch the series with after a's. ^_^
KIM SAM SOON ROCKS!
