Friday, October 13, 2006
farewell
Farewell assembly took place today.
Seriously wonder how some people can be saddened to the extent of crying. I almost teared with joy of leaving. But seriously, i was very touched by some people and many teachers.
Thank you Mr Seng, for saying those encouraging words to me, you have no idea the impact they have for me. Thank you so much! I will jia you and try my best to do you proud. ^_^
And of cos i know there are some great people around. To Hui Yi, thanx fer all that you have done. I really enjoyed talking with you today, and as I said I'm really appreciative towards all that you have done for me. ^_^ I'm looking forward to another talk with you some time soon. You've been a really good friend to me, as well. :)
And of cos, who could forget my soulmate in AJ. The one who I really regretted not knowing earlier, the one who stuck by me through thick and thin all these months, and the one who willingly forgave me and propped me up when nobody else was willing to do so. You make a world of difference, Xin Wei, and I really really enjoyed myself today. Thank you so much. ^_^
And here are some pictures, I will gather more from other people who took pictures as well, then I will add them on to the ones already in this post. :)
Overall, it was a good farewell. Not fantastic, nothing like SN at all. But then i talked to some of my favourite people in school and that should be more than enough. ^_^
^ v xin wei and i :)
^ xin wei's other half, lol....UPDATE!!! New pix, courtesy of Chings. :) Thanx lots gurl ^_^
^ in the school hall... we were one of the first classes to settle down hence the emptiness.
^ hey! nice poses! XD
^ Doesn't the teacher-wearing-school-uniform thing just remind you of SN, Miss Nair and Mrs Cheong? LOL.
^ forgot what is going on, i just don't look interested at all...
^ ya ya, you two enjoy the food...
^ this was what happened when we tried to do random poses. sorta reflects our personalities, eh? XD
^ aiyo why my hair so messy? lol.
^ hey xin wei, in case you want this one too...
^ HEY! How did my head get in? XD XD XD
^ one of my fave teachers mr seng, dropping by to say some really nice and motivating words! ^_^
^ hon chan should be glad mr seng was in a good mood that day...
^ nice spread, too bad i was still recovering from my food poisoning and didn't touch any of them... -_-
10/13/2006 01:25:00 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Drats, this stupid person barged into the stupid computer lab and stupidly forced me to go out of the stupid place so i have to type my entire LOOOONG post all over again. what the.....
Anyways. Prelim results are out. and YAY. they're bad. really bad.
Furthermore, I was supposed to get A for my CLA!! (Chinese Language at 'A' Levels) and after moderation, my mark fell from 75 to 68! So from A, i dropped to B! wat the hell, this is so damn unfair! %*)&^@#&^$&#^%..... Oh well. I still feel like strangling someone whenever i remember this. -_-*******
Here is what i had hoped to get:
CLA -- A
Econs -- C
History -- C or D
GP -- B3
And guess what? this is what i ended up with...
CLA -- B ( *&*^#$*#%&*^#^.... )
Econs -- D
History -- D
GP -- C5
Ugh. This sucks big time. But well, i know i can do better for the real thing and i will do better. Although my prelim grades can't even get me into NTU Chinese Programme, I will make it into FASS and take History. I will use my capabilities to prove myself. My dad and pengxiao were right. It doesn't matter how much people like you or hate you and it doesn't matter what they think of you. If you have the true capabilities, people will naturally be unable to deny or doubt anything about your capabilities. Some people will even start boot-licking immediately. and me, i have already seen and experienced that a few months back. Tsk. How hypocritical and disgusting.
I will do my best to prove that i am a much better person than a lotta people and i will let them be unable to deny my strengths. I don't want to sound so study-centred, but right now the thing i need to do most is to move on and get the hell outta this disgusting place, and step outta this disgusting period in my life. I know i have friends waiting and looking forward to our reunion in university. I know i will have a more enriching life out there as long as i'm not here. i despise so many people and so many things here, like how many people despise me. And although there are quite a few people here whom i really like, that doesn't change my feelings. my desire to leave is so strong and burns so ardently, it shocks some of my closest friends even.
Still, i understand that it is not good to be too bitter all the time. I do appreciate many things and many people. like some of those whom i most respect, and a friend i am full of gratitude for. Thanx to all those who stood by me in my loniest and most unhappy times, those who were so willing to say "i forgive you" or "i never blamed you", and thanx to those who supported me and propped me up all along. I'm sure you guys know that i'm talking about you. thanx so much. *hugs*
And i know it's not all too bad. Ching Yi, Selina, Huiyi, Yi Ling, if you guys happen to stumble upon this, please accept my thanx. :) You have all been rather nice about everything, and i really appreciate it.
Some friendships can last for many years, but change in a few days and end after that. Some friendships last for life, and keeps on changing, but the ties and emotions stay. Over the years, i'm become really sensitive when it comes to personal relationships. And things that happen not only allow me to reflect on life, but also see for myself who are the people i can count on for life, who are the people i can just say hi and bye to and not bother about them. Although relationships can be really vulnerable, but i am willing to groom and strengthen it bit by bit, and now i'm proud to say i have a good number of beautiful bonsais to look at any time i want. not a lot, but more than enough to last a lifetime. :)
Well, jia you everyone! It's only two more months to go, so let's go out there and secure our own future! For once in 12 years of education, i shall be the most study-centred i have ever been. ^_^
Da Jie and 26 have moved out for a good number of days, and it's really quiet and lonely at home without them. sure, i've got a lotta things to keep me occupied with, but it's just not the same anymore. Just Sunday i went to chat with da jie and watched shows with her until midnight, then i had to go back home if not my grandma will not sleep and will keep on nagging me. oh well. i am already missing everything about our good ol' days, although not all days were pleasant and although those 'days' were actually 'years'.
This Sunday they will be having their housewarming party. Bah. Oh well, i've got half a room there as well, i'm free to stay there as and when i like, so it's not that bad. and hopefully when my sister comes back home to stay after this semester ends for her things will take a better turn. That is, after she gets used to my snoring and after i get used to hers. :P XD XD And when that time comes it'll be really hard for us when we quarrel, cos unlike last time we'll be sharing the same bedroom and same study now. Bah. so don't agitate me, goddit? :P XD
And I'm hooked onto Audition! it's especially appealing to me since i'm not only an expert gamer (self-procclaimed one, that is) but i'm also a fan of ddr. It's the first online game that i'm hooked onto since i hate plotless games like Maple. (sorry maple fans) And it's so fun! ok ok, i know, not supposed to be playing anything right now, but all work and no play makes She Hui get PMS (yep, any time of the month, it can be triggered :P ). So for the safety and well-being for all those around me i shall play! haha. XDXD Furthermore i can only play during the weekends now, and only a short while at a time. I've gotten jc to help me download the executables, and hopefully the game can run on my
XW was looking at Calvin and Hobbes comic online just now. So now I feel like reading Calvin and Hobbes. It's the only english comic i read, and needless to say i love it. So wonderfully cute and interesting and humourous!! Missed those days when we were so crazy over it, my sis and i read books after books after books of Calvin and Hobbes.
Hope pengxiao will get her visa done soon... missing you lots baby.... and hope to be able to meet up with wen han and bekah soon... haven't seen bekah in ages especially. >< ............ ok ok i'm rattling about random stuff now, so i shall stop here for today. GO GO GO!!
