Monday, October 29, 2007
哭
哭，是没有办法解决问题的。
然而，哭却能够帮我宣泄一下情绪。
永无止境的眼泪，盘旋着的伤悲。
挥却不去的疲劳，
像在车里漂浮空中的烟灰，
越是挥手想凐灭，越是薰得人忍不住掉眼泪。
一个人的战斗，一个人的旅途。
多么的孤单，多么的疲累。
多么的伤心，多么的气愤。
多么的困难，多么的艰辛。
我走不下去了。
我的泪已让我的视线模糊，
我的身心已伤痕累累。
我好想放弃，好想消失。
我好想快乐，好想安眠。
他得学习长大，
而我得学习放开。
可我现在也就只有透过文字及朋友们的支持
来留住我的理智了。
很快，很快，
一切就将过去了。
10/29/2007 07:19:00 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Exhaustion
I fight the sudden desires to be suicidal.
I pry my thoughts away from the idea of taking his medication.
Sorrow fills me as I weep, tears flowing out of my body, but never to be reunited with the borderless ocean.
Why is it that my body can conjure tears when my mind is completely blank?
I am so tired. So fearful and paranoid.
And he is so tired of me.
I don't feel that I am special. But at the same time I want to be normal.
I have to be there for my loved ones. I have to.
I just want to be happy.
10/27/2007 09:59:00 PM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Repeal it now!
10/17/2007 02:19:00 AM
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
痛苦
时时埋怨自己人生，觉得自己很痛苦的人，
其实并不了解痛苦，也一点都不痛苦，
因为那些真正痛苦的人
连觉得痛苦、埋怨人生的精力都没有。
虽然有时候感到悲伤、寂寞、疲倦、难过，
但我很幸运，因为我至少是有尊严地活着的，
我有自己的梦想，有自己的人生，有我爱的人，爱我的人。
我有思考的精力，懂得爱懂得恨，
有自己觉得美丽和丑陋的人事物，
虽然我不一定是幸福的，但我并不痛苦。
人们啊，感恩吧。
10/03/2007 04:50:00 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
DOING GENDER
Self and social perception of one's gender, what is sex, sex category, and gender:
Preview to He Said, She Said
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bah75FNXmLU
Contrast Helen with Agnes and also consider the attitudes of people and society, especially those guys who did not know of Helen's secret.
Ommigosh. I can't believe our T.A. REALLY asked us to watch this. O_O
WARNING: ADULT CONTENT! DO NOT WATCH IF YOU ARE BELOW 18!
An Addition
After I shared this with Renny she found this other show called There's Something About Miriam. Check this out. It pays more attention to the psychological aspects of the people involved in this reality TV show and it is much less explicit than He Said, She Said.
There's something about Miriam - Announcement of Miriam's secret:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ACJL41x3QE
There's something about Miriam - The End
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQ1ORB8fxRs
~3:46PM~
10/02/2007 01:01:00 PM
BOREDOM!~
I am bored and I am blogging.
I feel as if there is so much to do, so little time, and yet I am stoning away, slacking away, doing-nothing away.
I miss my 大姐 lots. I wish she would be around. At least that gives me a greater sense of security.
I want more of Blackforest Band, but I don't know if I will be able to stay for long for their Friday gig. :(
I want to learn how to ride a bicycle, and I wish my hair would be more cooperative.
I am meeting Renny to study tomorrow, errr, I mean later, and I am worried that I would not have the mood to study and will end up gaming or surfing the net.
Sighz.
10/02/2007 01:49:00 AM
Monday, October 01, 2007
Randomness
I've finally found the secret to not messing my hair up as much as possible:
the h a i r d r y e r ! !
wahaha. lame~ it feels as if I haven't attended lessons in forever. And as usual, I am not paying attention to boring lectures. I love sociology. Whee~
Countdown to ah heng's last day at work: 2
