Thursday, March 20, 2008
Bleagch
I am sick.
Down with a sore throat.
And being sick makes me feel weak, vulnerable,
more prone to hurt than usual.
Each time I swallow I do it with pain,
My eyes burn, telling me to rest.
But I have a promise to fulfil.
I hate being sick. It magnifies all the bad things, and diminishes all the good things. It makes you unappreciative, grumpy, teary, tired, unexcited, and makes you pity yourself.
And what's worse, I'm planning fer a birthday but the protagonist isn't here with me. >_>
Oh well. I'll try my best. After all it's totally worth it.
I hope I get well soon. =/
3/20/2008 10:15:00 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
You
The scars are no longer as glaring
The tears are slowly stopping
My heart is slowly getting numb
The pain is slwoly fading
You were never really there for me
When the world judged me wrongly
You joined their camp and dumped me aside
I thought you were the one who propped me up
I thought I could eventually touch your soul
You never saw me for who I am
You never noticed all the changes in me
You never acknowledged me
You never saw me as an equal
You never put down your pride
You never admitted your mistakes
You never truly loved me
You only reserved that love to yourself
You chose others over me
You let others hurt me
You murdered me over and over again
And you were always you
I loved you.
And I still do love you,
But I have no more strength to go on
I've been hurt all over, time and again
I have given you everything
I have subjected myself to your hurt
All I request is for you to love me for who I am
But you never loved me from the start
I can't take any more hurt and pain
I am already too tired
If you should choose to say goodbye
I will cry one last time for you
And send my goodwilled wishes for you for the rest of life
Be well, and be happy
And I love you
3/18/2008 02:33:00 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
More and Clearer Pictures
Two more images, hopefully clearer. I took this a few days ago, took ling's suggestion and applied a whole chunk of eyeliner to parts of my eyelids and everything.
Expect an unhappy post from me. Angst have been building up fer a few days now. Gotta vent soon before I explode. >_>
3/13/2008 09:13:00 AM
Friday, March 07, 2008
The Magic of Makeup
My sister dragged me along to shop fer cosmetics and I randomly felt like doing goth makeup, minus the dark lipstick colours.
Then I bought eyeliner and mascara and started playing around with some of my sister's stuff, I think I look pretty good and it was amazing how much eye makeup changed the way I looked as a whole.
My camera was horrible, and I look much better in person but nevertheless here is a picture:
I must say that it is not easy to master the art of applying eyeliner and bending your eyelashes with that metal clip thing. But it was fun because this seemed like a form of visual art and I enjoyed the process. (Minus removal of the makeup, the toner from the wet tissues almost killed me with pain)
I will be putting this makeup whenever I feel diligent enough, I guess, because I really like the way I look with this makeup. :D
"Tomorrow", dearies from the clique will be able to see me in this new look. I would love to say it is today, but Bekah insisted that my clock was fast and now is still Thursday, so I have to wear the make up to show her TOMORROW.
Tsk tsk. NEVER MINE, BEKAH. :D
Cya all TOMORROW fer the performance, dearies!!~ <333
3/07/2008 12:10:00 AM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me
Heng dedicated a song to me for our friendship. =)
Click here to listen to "Bon Jovi - Thank You for Loving Me"
Thank You For Loving Me 感谢你爱我
~ Bon Jovi ~
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words and I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart, I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words and I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
Oh~ When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh~ You gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh~ Loving me
有时候要我把我想要说的事说出来很困难
这里除了你我以及那老旧的街灯以外
没有一个人
将门锁上
让我们把世界留在外面
我唯一能够献给你的
就只有这五个字和我自己
“感谢你爱我”
感谢你在我盲目的时候当我的双眼
感谢你在我无法呼吸时为我分开双唇
感谢你爱我
感谢你爱我
我从来都不知道我有一个梦
直到那个梦是你
当我望入你的双眼
天空是另一种蔚蓝
我发誓，我没有戴着任何伪装
就算我尝试那么做，你也会装作你相信我
完全相信我的所有谎言
感谢你爱我
感谢你在我盲目的时候当我的双眼
在我无法呼吸时为我分开双唇
感谢你爱我
你在我跌倒时将我扶起
你在所有人判我出局之前为我响起了钟铃声
若我快溺毙，你会为我劈开汪洋大海
为了拯救我不顾自己的性命
将门锁上
让我们把世界留在外面
我唯一能够献给你的
就只有这五个字和我自己
“感谢你爱我”
感谢你在我盲目的时候当我的双眼
在我无法呼吸时，你为我分开双唇
感谢你爱我
在我无法飞翔时，你给了我翅膀
在我无法呼吸时，你为我分开双唇
感谢你爱我
感谢你爱我
感谢你爱我
爱着我
