Friday, April 18, 2008
What I've been up to
WARNING - LOTS OF RANDOMNESS AHEAD
I've playing a good bit of Audition lately, because I met a group of dearies and started hanging out with them in the game (and outside of it as well). I even leveled up to 21! W00t, I'm an Amateur now! xD
RAWR~
I declare that Qing (Qin) is my best girlfriend on Audition! RAWR!!! JiJi <3 QiQi
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And although the others won't read this, I <3333 Fang, Tian, Yuri, Phiphi, Alice, Pearl as well. Maybe even Oiink and Kenny. xD
It's about time to start mugging, so I won't be able to game as much. >_>
Oh, and I've got to do something about my sleeping hours. It's insane even by my usual standards. ~___~
Well to top off all the other randomness, my current record for 3X3 Rubik's cube is 1 min 40 secs! W00ts.
And finally, I have a phone date with Bekah 情人 tonight. Whee~
After exams I wanna change my blogskin.... Although Moo should have a Moo Moo blogskin but Moo wants something new... xD
Ending off the randomness and going back to craziness~
4/18/2008 05:45:00 PM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
YOU. WILL. NOT.
You will not get what you want.
You will not succeed.
I have been trying so hard, to make everything seem better.
Even when I have friends who love me dearly, you try to blind me, deafen me, cloud my senses.
Even after my scars are gone, you deceive me, making me feel as if they have been there all the time.
Even when I have made so much effort, you just stride in and try to fall everything I've built up from scratch, time and again.
GO AWAY! STAY AWAY FROM ME! GET OUT OF MY LIFE!
You have held me captive for so long. I will not succumb.
You have hurt my friends and you have hurt me.
You may have succeeded so many times before, but I will not let you do it this time round.
Stop creeping into my life, stop trying to take control, stop trying to inflict your damage!
GO AWAY! SCRAM! TO HELL WITH YOU! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
I just want a simpler life, a happier life, a more naive view of the world, even if I have to be shallow, superficial, stupid, hypocritical, selfish..... if being all that could make me happier, so be it.
I wish I could stop attracting all the bad things and bad emotions in the world. Why do good things never last for me? Why are bad things coming at me one after another? Why is it happening to me?
Why am I never happy and content? Why am I always seeking something so unrealistic? Why am I causing so much unhappiness and attracting so much trouble?
What is wrong with me? What is happening to me? Is it just me? Is it what you are trying to accomplish?
Is there a way out? There is light, but there is always darkness within. Will there be light within that darkness?
GO. AWAY!!!!!
I'm so sorry to all my friends who are worried about me. I'm trying to fight something I dare not even name, I don't even know if it exists within me, and I don't know if it will ever go away for good.
I will be fine after a while, but it is way too selfish for me to keep subjecting you all to such worry time and again. It never seems to end. I am so sorry. I truly am. And I am also thankful. Thankful for you all being there for me, putting up with whatever bad things that I always bring along, and never failing to love me and care for me.
Thank you all.
4/08/2008 01:52:00 AM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Grace is Gone - Art Under-Appreciated
It is both sad and delightful to know that often, the best film arts out there are often neglected by the masses. Sad, because these great works often go unappreciated by most people, but delightful because you enjoy it with people who have a relatively deeper character and there are no irritating gangster-wannabes throwing out stupid comments, laughing their asses off at the wrong things, or just creating unpleasantness in general.
Admist all the insanity from the overwhelming academic obligations throughout this period in school term, Jing Chuan and I went for a movie together last night. Grace is Gone is a very good piece of film art, with John Cusack delivering an amazing performance and the story is, to say the least, touching.
The film portrays so many deeply emotional and psychological moments that I really marvel at not only the script, the acting, but also the screenplay. It is a short movie, lasting only about 85 minutes, but with regards to the nature of the plot, we felt that the length was appropriate and there were no big irrelecant captures within the film. (Which would make it a draggy show)
It is this award-winning film that is only being offered in one cinema, with one showtime every day, and with only about 10 people watching this on a late Friday afternoon. It just shows how such a film is not being marketed and how almost everyone's attention is focused on the other more commercial films catering to the wants of the consumer. (I wouldn't even know of this show if I hadn't seen the trailer while waiting for The Diving Bell and the Butterfly to start in the cinema)
I wouldn't say that is wrong, nor would I like to judge that consumers have no right to pursue these marketed films, but I personally would see it a waste that films like Grace is Gone, Away From Her and The Diving Bell and the Butterfly are much less noticed than films like Shutter, Street Kings, etc.
For those who have the free time, I strongly urge you to go for this film if you are interested to see a soulful performance by the genius in John Cusack. It is a tear-jerker, nonetheless it is a truly good piece of art.
Here is the official movie trailer:
And here is the link to the offical website:
http://www.graceisgone-themovie.com/
