Saturday, May 31, 2008

机会。。。

机会就跟小偷一样。。。

来的时候你不晓得，

等到走了之后你才知道损失惨重！

-- 摘自《命中注定我爱你》--

5/31/2008 12:43:00 AM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

My Part Time Job Starts

Aye. I just started on my part time job today (er... technically, yesterday...) and it was a very severe case of information overload fer me. So many things to learn and know by heart! But I am hoping that this will be a long term part time job fer me so I'll try to master everything ASAP.

The people there are pretty friendly and other than the maid and the bosses' kid, the other people all speak mainly in Mandarin. Whee~ And the kid is pretty cute and likeable. Double whee! Photobucket

The job is really slack, I don't have to spend on transport nor food since it's so near to my home, and the people there are nice. I guess it's a really, really good job although the pay isn't wonderful. =)

Ganbatte ne Rijichou! Photobucket

Something really cute - my 老板娘 calls my sister 小妹, but I am my sister's younger sister, so my 老板娘 decided to call me 小小妹.... LOL, so cute right? XD

I know this won't be the most interesting job ever, but I'm gonna put in effort to it. Photobucket

5/29/2008 12:20:00 AM

Friday, May 23, 2008

祈愿

愿四川的灾民们平安快乐，能够早日重建家园。

全世界的心都与你们同在，请你们加油！

5/23/2008 01:48:00 PM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

相信

我选择相信，

因为相信比较幸福。

5/21/2008 04:26:00 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Pengxiao

She told me...

"I hate being your backbone. I hate being your strength."

"I want you to be your own strength. I want you to be you."

"Your friend can be with you every second you're upset, comfort you and listen to you, give you tissue whenever you cry..., but if you're not alright inside, then nothing is going to help. Nobody can make you feel better. Only you yourself can make you feel better."

"You're pathetic!"

"You're forever giving chances for other people to hurt you. It just happens over and over again."

"I can't make you move. You can't move until you do it youself."

"I can tell you a million ways to do it, but after all we're different people. Things work for us in different ways. You got to do it yourself."

"You tell me you want to move on. But everytime I say something you say it's difficult, it's impossible, it's hard. I keep getting negative responses from you."

"You're not moving! You need to move! I've said these things a million times, and you just stay at the same place!"

"She is married to your uncle. It's going to be forever. I know it's hard. But you have to do it sooner or later. You can't just stay here forever."

"I feel like a trashcan."

"I think it's a good idea. It's good that at least someone is forcing you to move on."

What I want to say is:

I'm sorry. You will never be a trashcan or any of the sort. I will move on. I will not run away from it anymore. It will take me a lot of time, but I will do it. I will look into her eyes one day, and feel nothing for her.

Thank you. Thank you so much. I miss you every single day of my life and I feel so lonely sometimes. I love you so much.

Thank you.

5/18/2008 12:10:00 AM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Almighty JIJI Returns

Yes, after one day of hurting and non-stop crying, Almighty JiJi is back.

Do give her some time to get rid of those swollen eyes. And:

THANK YOU FANG DARLING. <333333333

THANK YOU EVERYONE ELSE WHO EXPRESSED YOUR CONCERN: Renny, Bekah, Jing, Xian, Mich, Opal, Ahgurl. Thank you all so much.

5/14/2008 01:30:00 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

够了

我。。。真的，真的累了。

真的，真的再也承受不了更多伤痛了。

求求你们，求求你们。。。

不要再伤害我了。。。

5/13/2008 02:24:00 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

As Expected

Being the failure I am, I accomplished nothing.

5/11/2008 12:57:00 AM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

给自己的一封信

亲爱的自己：

想了很久很久，我还是决定将这封信献给你。

我伴你走过了二十个年头，看你经历过许多大大小小的事情，看过你的期盼、奢望、自责、绝望、悲伤、怒火、挣扎。。。甚至看过你开心的样子，可是。。。

你快乐吗？

我再也看不下去了。是时候跟你好好谈谈了。

过了那么多年，受过那么多伤，你还是没办法对自己承认 -- 没有人可以彻底地爱你。我看到了你的朋友们对你的关爱；是，他们是爱你的，可是天底下没有任何人可以彻底地去爱另外一个人。爱可以是无条件的，可是爱不可能是无止境的。就连我，也会有不爱你，或爱别人的时候啊！！

你问问你自己吧，因为其实你很清楚，你自己本身也不可能时时刻刻都把所有心思放在一个人身上。既然如此，为什么还要奢望别人做一些不可能的事呢？

我看着你，总是会不自觉地去同情你。可能因为我就是你的关系，可能是因为你遇到的不好的事情实在是太多了，说真的，我就算想要安慰你也不晓得应该从哪里开始。很多事情是没有办法呢么简单就放下的，希望你从今以后要变得更坚强、勇敢，希望那些不好的事情不要再发生了，希望你懂得珍惜你自己。

这个“家”和那个“家”没有办法爱你是不可雄辩的事实，可是也不能完全说是他们的错吧？因为他们不爱的，也就只有你一个，他们不了解的，也就只有你一个；他们不体谅的，也就只有你一个。是我们的问题吗？抑或是缘分的问题？你再悲伤又有什么用呢？看开一点吧，总有一天，我们会找到属于我们的家的。

总而言之，世间存在着无数的无可奈何，可是总会有美丽的人事物。生命有着令人屏息的美丽，大自然有着令人目不转睛的姿态，智慧拥有着无限大的魅力。反之，丑陋的事物总是刺眼得让我们暂时看不清那些美丽的东西。然，世间若无丑陋，又何来美丽？

亲爱的自己啊，敞开胸怀地去爱吧，毫无拘束地哭吧，毫无保留地去体验人生吧！！放胆地笑、豪爽地哭喊、潇洒地走下去！学会懂得去接受欣赏感谢不好的事情，追求你热爱的音乐，陶醉于你喜欢的人事物。人生只有一次，不要让过去的枷锁缠上自己的未来。无论你怎么悲观，太阳依然灿烂，地球继续转。

亲爱的自己啊，我们走吧！！

5/07/2008 04:06:00 PM

Friday, May 02, 2008

Mini-update

MAYDAY CONCERT WAS SMASHING!!!!!!!!!

I screamed so much I'm still voice-less now. =.=

Will post the pictures up when I get them from Wen Han's friend, I can't believe how near to 阿信 we were!! 5m!! *faints* And they're such skilled live performers. 怪兽's and 石头's guitar solos and duets were unbeatable. RAWR.

Camwhore at work again -- What I looked like on the day of the concert:

^ Flushed face and MAYDAY T-SHIRT after I reached home. xD

Other than that, I've officially joined a guild in Audition, with the dearies I mentioned in my previous post. =3 Say hi to Almighty JiJi the guild's head tester, everyone! (I really didn't expect to get that position, but since I got it, I can use it to taunt other guildies under me. Muahahahahaha) >:D

And more randomness....

Eh, who is Fang? She is a spammer. LOL. Fine fine, she is my darling. <333>

2 papers now, 2 more to go. Next up is beloved Philosophy. Go go go! xD

And I'm looking forward to the post-exams era, I want to change my blogskin. Grrr. I like the Moo on top but the neon colours are getting on my nerves. I want something gothy~