Monday, June 30, 2008

累了，算了，放了。。。

你口口声声说，

我是你最好的朋友

你唯一的妹子

你唯一倾诉的对象

..............................

这世界上任何一种关系，说穿了讲的就是个“心”字

算我求你，不要等到每次你需要我陪伴或帮助时才来找我，平时却对我爱理不理，毫不在乎...

这，对我而言，是一种侮辱。

我也是个人。我也会有我的期盼、需要。我也有需要人家陪伴帮助的时候。

你曾经为了我而不顾一切地跑来我的身边吗？

你有没有发觉过，我每次忍着多少疼痛多少哀伤，在陪伴你的同时忍受别人对我的不良态度？

这些年来我为你做的、付出的东西，你看到了吗？你有感觉到吗?

没有。

因为你从来都不曾用“心”对待我。

我不想再理你了。

6/30/2008 01:13:00 AM

Friday, June 27, 2008

Genting Trip - Picture-Heavy Post!

Booooo~ I am back from my near 4-day away to Malaysia, Genting! =3

Everyone's been asking me how the trip was. Well, the weather was perfect compared to Singapore but I was down with a diarrhoea + flu the moment I reached. Plus I haven't been resting enough since 3-4 days before I left, and I didn't rest well there because I wasn't used to sleeping on thick mattresses LOL.

I played a lot and rested a lot, and most of the times I was tired and sick but still I enjoyed myself a lot. :D Here're tons of pictures to share~!

First day lunch at Kenny Rogers - my warm caramel milk. Yummy~ <33

Waiting fer check-in time, at the hotel lobby... (my parents)

First night in the hotel room.. Money money money!! $_$

Camwhore~ Whee~

I was so tired I was stuck on the bed. And look at what my sister managed to capture. LOL

Eeeeeek, a mess!

My beloved Rubik's cube kept me company while I was bored. <333

And this was my lifesaver. <33333333

Peek-a-........

BOOOOOO!!!

Mirror shots :D

Camwhore busy at work again.

My sister tried to be a busybody and ... ROFL

Waiting fer one of the roller coaster rides to start

Mist~ Tons of it~

We took the padle boat under my insistence <333333333

And we took this Flying Coaster. It spins your entire body 360 degrees fer more than 5-6 times and because I had such a weak grip, I was rammed all over. Ouch~

The one and only ride I really wanted to take - The Cockscrew (biggest roller coaster ride in Genting Outdoor Theme Park). BUT IT WAS UNDER ANNUAL MAINTENENCE!!! RAWR~ SOBS. T_________T

We took this as well - The Space Shot. This one is really scary. You get lifted off the seat completely when you go down and it feels as though you're jumping to death. O_O But it's really fun, hehe.

I forgot what this one was called. It's nothing much but it makes you really dizzy lol.

This was where the Dreamz show was about to take place. (A circus show with some of the rarest animals including a tiger, a white tiger and a white lion) Love beautiful animals but I hope they're being treated well in the circus...

More mist~

My dad loved the flowers lol.

Whee~ DORAEMON!!!!

Highlands Hotel (we went to take a stroll on the second night of our stay there and I took this)

LOL me acting cool. =x

And my sister taking more pointless pictures

They had lotsa flowers outside and my sister decided to come in and spoil my picture... Oops, I mean, she decided to take a picture with the flowers. =x

Night scene of the Outdoor Theme Park. We were indoors and I had to stretch my hands out of the windows to take these pictures. It was painful. x.x

Our last day in Genting, more pointless photos~

Other than flowers, my dad loves plants in general LOL

He always doesn't smile so I decided to look glum with him (and just then, he finally decided to smile more =.=)

Alright, there you have it, pointless photos followed up by even more pointless photos! XD

Some small funny/interesting things that happened during our trip...

-> On the first night, during dinner, my sister was bumped because when she asked fer more sashimi the chef only gave her 5-6 slices each time. She wanted more but was embarrassed so she sent me in her place (I don't eat the sashimi though). And the moment I went, the chef gave me a whole plate (like 20 or so slices) and my sister got jealous cos I said "Aiya, must be because I more chio than you." LOL! A_Av

-> We were pestered and almost stalked by two Indian guy tourists on the first night at the arcade! o_O But we quickly ran away from them phew.

-> There was an upcoming competition to be held in Genting fer the arcade basketball machine. We saw a guy that was super pro, he scored more than 600 points every single time, yet he was unable to beat the highest record on that machine! o_O (the highest was 693)

-> I did manage to sneak into the casino most of the time except once. I guess I should be happy that I look young enough to be stopped from entering the casino LOL. Because my sister was with me and they didn't stop her but only me so she was devastated! LOL.

-> The people in the casinos are mostly darn rich. I saw a lot of Gucci's, LV's, Prada's, all over the place. But I don't recognize most of them. My sister saw them and pointed it out to me. $__$

Bleh that's about it. =x I wanna go enjoy the weather again with my friends next time!! It's not too ex and if we only go fer a couple of days, it won't get TOO boring. Especially when we have each other's company. :D

Ta~ Da~ Time fer audi and then off to repay my sleep debt! X3

6/27/2008 12:01:00 AM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Like, ewwwwwwwwwww~

I really hate these kinna things but I got tagged by beloved Qing so I'm doing this. And I'll drown it out immediately with my Genting photos LOL.

1. What is your current age?
20 years 5 months 5 days 14 hours old

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Anything related to music

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
Why would true friends be bothered about wins and losses? These kinna thing are all over life.

4. If you had to die to save a friend/loved one, would you do it?
Duh~

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
World peace

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Duh~

7. What is the most important thing in your life?
Surviving, apparently. Other than that - thought.

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Killing off all internet quizzes and tag-lists.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Never

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
She is sweet, she always share the same thoughts as me and she is supportive. =)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Doesn't really matter now cos I haven't met him yet.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
People who betray themselves.

13. Who do you like?
My friends

14. Who are you missing right now?
Pengxiao, Wen Han, Bekah, Xian'er, Renny, Opal, and most of all myself.

15. If you could travel back in time, which famous person would you like to meet?
Either Socrates or 庄子

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
The part that keeps me unhappy

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Pengxiao, Wen Han, Bekah. Don't force me to choose because it's really all of them.

18. Do you think you get hungry because you’re cold, or cold because you’re hungry?
I can never feel cold in this freaking hot weather and I'm not hungry at the moment.

Uugh, don't tag me fer this kinna things anymore. I really don't like them LOL. I'm only doing this fer a second time because it was Qing who tagged me. If it were Ophi or Fang, I'd have ignored them. :D

Genting photos shall be up soon, when my sister gets down to uploading from her camera~ =3

6/26/2008 12:44:00 PM

Monday, June 16, 2008

TAGGED BY OPHI

Read this before proceeding and pay attention to the freaking last part!!

http://ophilala.wordpress.com/2008/06/11/12345678910/

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?

If I love that someone, there is no such thing as waiting. The spiritual bond will never cease to exist. Provided that someone loves me back and my feelings are being reciprocated.

2) What do you hope for now?

World peace and happiness.

3) What is the last thing you say/do if tomorrow is the end of world?”

"See? I TOLD you it was gonna happen."

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?

When I get the idea that I hate them, I am actually hating myself. So in reality, I could never hate them. I <3333

5) What will you do if your best friend has been kidnapped?

Murder the kidnappers. Save her in the shortest time possible at all costs.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Seen it a couple of times in my life.

7) what are you listening to now?

Sounds from the fish tank in my office. ~__~

8)What is your desired age of marriage?

The right age.

9 ) Are you happy with your life now?

Can anyone be truly happy with his/her life?

10) What if your crush ask you out?

Uuhhhh, lemme find a crush first. LOL

11) What will you do when you have crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?

Like that LOR.

12) What feeling do you hate the most?

When my blood runs cold and my head feels like lead.

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?

Like that lor, be myself.

14) What are you looking forward in the upcoming weeks?

Work, work and more work. Gaming and music, and also shows and friends.

15) The most important things in your life?

My friends.

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?

Those people whom I love and they love me back with sincerity.

17) Do you find life meaningless?

Life is meaningless. Thought isn't.

18) Where do you think can find true love?

In abstract thought.

19) Do you believe that there is ‘True love’?

Define "true". Define "love". But definitions don't really work out in the first place so in essence, there is nothing, including the abstract idea of "true love".

20) What’s your greatest wish?

To be happy.

21)What will you change when you can turn back time?

My birth.

People i tag :
BEING THE KIND SOUL I AM, I TAG NOBODY. UNLIKE YOU, OPHI!

6/16/2008 12:58:00 PM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

For more, please refer to http://iamsingaporelang.blogspot.com

Eh heh it's finally time for a light-hearted post. But first, to all dearies, thank you all for the love. I just thought through some things by myself. Thanks to mich for that phone call. =)

Last Sunday, I met 2 of my fellow guildmates from the game AuditionSEA (i.e., online friends), Ophi and Fang. (Yes, the Fang idiot that I had earlier mentioned in this blog) It was the last Blackforest gig, so Heng and I went to show our support, in the process dragging my two little new friends along. =)

Basically, the meeting was much better than I hoped it would turn out to be, and I really haven't laughed so hard and so long in forever. LOL. So many funny things happened and they were all over the place, I seriously have no idea where I should start recapping. For the animated and Singlish version of it, kindly refer to Fang's blog. =x

A picture speaks a thousand words, but some captions and doodles won't hurt, too; so, enjoy the pictures everyone. :D

W00ts to Blackforest Band and the other bands who performed! =)

We next walked to and hung out at Plaza Singapura, and after walking about for a while, we ened up at Zone X. (But before that we went to spy on Audi players at PC Bunk LOL)

At the arcade, we had fun watching (and gushing at) pros. I never got to play my Time Crisis 4, but the three of them took turns playing Silent Hill. EEEEKS. We also had fun with Daytona and Photo Hunt. Whee~

Most notably, we played at the basketball shooting machine until Ophi and Fang got a ball stuck there. We then got Heng to climb up to the machine next to ours to get extra balls fer us to use, because we were trying to hit that stuck ball down. Here was the end result:

Machine A, the one we used:

Machine B, the one we stole the balls from:

LOLOLOL

And then after arcade, it was dinner at Carl's Junior.... In the morning Heng was already complaining that he wanted to eat there but I refused... And then Fang expressed the idea that she didn't believe Carl's Junior would provide filling food. So in we went...

OMG PINK SPRITE!!

OMG COLOURLESS SPRITE!!

We made Fang laughed until she cried! LOLOLOL. Wheee~ <333

And finally the aftermath... When I reached home I remembered that my darlings had given me a small gift. And so I took a picture of it as well... =)

Tata~ That's it! Work has been keeping me really busy and tired, and I've been down and emotional for a good period of time. The meeting with Ophi and Fang really cheered me up tons. Thankies muchies dearies. Love ya both and hope to meet you two again really soon. <3333

6/10/2008 10:04:00 PM

Friday, June 06, 2008

Knew It All Along

I knew all along that I was not that important to you, after all.

Those times when we often flared up at each other but you could always vent your sadness and anger on me for days on end,

Those times when I tried to reach out to you and help you but you ignored me,

Those times you made all those empty promises to me,

Those times you said all the things that made it seem as if you were really putting effort into this whole thing,

Those times you apologised for hurting me,

Those times you spoke about what we would do in the future.

Perhaps, I knew it all along, that you were only making things seem pretty.

Perhaps, I knew it all along, that there never was a true friendship between us.

Perhaps, I knew it all along, that you tell me I am your best friend but did not mean it.

Perhaps, I knew it all along, that other people will always be more important to you than I am.

I knew it all along, that I was the only one looking forward to our reunion.

I knew it all along, that you were the one that mattered to yourself.

I knew it all along, that I was going to get hurt.

I knew it all along, that it is only natural for you to resemble your own sister.

And this makes Pengxiao completely right.

She Hui, you've decided to move on regarding one person who used to matter in your life. It is now time to consider adding another person to this list. You have much more to do than this. There is so much more out there. Don't keep getting hurt. Even if you can take more of this shit, you shouldn't make others worry for you.

Just remember to move. And breathe. And love those whom you know will love you back.