Tuesday, September 30, 2008
SEXY REDBULL GOES MOO~
And yes, this is my dad... Look closely... He's wearing... BANANA IN PAJAMAS shorts OMG LOL!
25, 24, 23, and then 3, 2, 1. lol~
Playing around with numbers again. Ya that's a lot of what we do in audi. =x
Lol our faces XD
Ugly, but nice!! SO SHUT UP, RISA!
Cute eh! =3 We dance until like so forced haha.
Lololol Sexy REDbull couple appears for the first time. X3 MOO~~~
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Just love that look on sm3xy REDbull. MOO~
And we're naturally the best couple of the game. LOL~ <3
MUACKS~
AND.... At times like this... The fairy gets on my nerves. RAWR What a big lightbulb
9/30/2008 10:52:00 PM
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Happy Birthday Wen Han + My work place + Random photos
Today is dearest Wen Han's birthday~ Love her lots. ^_______^
And, introducing.... my work place!! Maybe I can get some photos of my boss, her kid and my colleagues some other time. :D
Here's my workstation. A very small room, but the limited space adds to the cosiness of two people working together.
The fish tank. I used to be a bit bothered by the sounds emitting from it, but as time went by, I got used to it. These fellas are nice to scare. >=D
What I call the "typewriter" and "titbits" table. I contributed to around 40% of the snacks you see here at the top of the table.
And, for my job, I often have to face files....
More files....
Even more files...... on top of the data in the computer.
This is where we have lunch. And hold mini-meetings. And cut stuff. And paste stamps onto envelopes. And check out all the new things my boss bought e.g. digital camera, e-dictionary, etc.
The living room. The sofa's darn comfy.
The bedroom. Her son rests here when he is tired. He practises violin in this room, too.
AND A TENNIS COURT. WOW.
Some of the bags...
Purchases to keep track of are written on the white board in front of the door. At the top left hand corner there is a picture of my boss, her son, and Lee Hsien Long at some regional NDP celebration or something like that.
This is where my boss usually sits, just a few inches away from me. You think it looks like a lot of paper?
Wait til you see THIS. And it's not even the complete archives.
And finally, our own sealing machines
Phew. For people who are clueless, I'm working part-time at this local packaging company. The office is set in a condo near my place, so I walk there to work two days per week when I'm not having lessons. I get along very well with the people there and I especially like my boss. ^__^ We're addicted to giving each other random small gifts! Haha.
Anyways, more random photos...
First time taking my own picture with my mobile phone. Woots. 3.2 megapixels camera ROCKS!
At Pasta de Waraku with my sister... Love the asparagus, egg and cheese. 
Got a "care-leh-fare" at the back laaaaa. And that's my strawberry milk by the way. The picture was meant to be for my strawberry milk but my sis shamelessly insisted that she wanted to take a photo with the strawberry milk.
Me and the pizza my sister ordered. Wow!~ Nice pizza! (And the strawberry milk is MINE)
Me with shades. I actually like the way I look with it, so I bought it. Just ignore the tag hanging on my nose. Haha.
9/23/2008 10:57:00 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Hmmmm.....?
First off, I would like to thank Bekah dearest fer calling me up to talk for 3 hours and 39 minutes... Although a good part of that was spent either in silence (I was finishing up Genso Suikoden II on my PS for the 9th time and Bekah was trying to get her "Curry Chicken Pizza" to cooperate with Microsoft Excel, haha), or we were talking about religions.
Next, I'm sick. =____=
After the dreadful viral infection, I somehow came down with a sore throat, which developed itself into a sore throat + cough today. =_____________= (I don't know how it happened, the only logical way to interpret this would be that I caught the sore throat because I was throwing up due to the viral infection and from there it worsened to include a cough. Seems rather far-fetched to me though)
And following that, I'm supposed to be working on my religion essay now. But I'm not in the mood and I never will be. Okay, I've done a lot considering I'm freaking sick and tired (no pun intended) of coughing, clearing my throat, and trying to soothe my headache. I finished 70% of one of my 3 assigned mid-term readings for Japanese history. And I done up my research for the religion essay.
Now, I've somewhat got a main argument for the essay formulated in my head, so I'll scan through the textbook and call it a night. Plus what I've studied for the test at work today still remains clearly in my head. Which is a very good sign = excuse for slacking. Muahahahaha.
More randomness - I sneaked my neoprints to work today and scanned them. The quality isn't perfect, but I'm content. Shall post a few of my favourites to end this random post off (if not my blog would look freaking emo)
Not really clear here, but this was Ling, Bekah and I in January 2005. I still remember leh! Pro right! Haha. 
One of my favourites with Pengxiao 
Love you girls!
Another one of my favourite. That doll, whom I named Harle, was Bekah's birthday gift to me in Sec 4.
With my ex-little hubbie. Those were the days~ 
Ling's posture.........................
This one's a classic. That's Wen Han and I in secondary 3, at Pengxiao's old place at Ang Mo Kio, Wen Han was playing 仙剑奇侠传 on Pengxiao's old Sony lappie.
Sending Pengxiao off at the airport, 20th November 2004. Saddest day of my life.
Yes, we are in love. ^___^ 
This one is way too bright. Oh wells. I was kissing Harle and Pengxiao was kissing her white stuffed doggie.
Wen Han's birthday, Jing Chuan came along. I ponned school so I was the only one not in school uniform. :P
Okies then, next update will be on my workplace, I think, I've been sneaking around taking pictures lately. Haha.
9/16/2008 11:35:00 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
So I was thinking...
Using my sickness as an excuse not to do work, I spent 3 hours stalking people whom I used to be close to. (and other random people in general)
I know that I don't have much of a life and I chose to be this way. Yet sometimes I ponder what life would be if I were to, like the other youths I know, go out there and live my life to the craziest (not fullest, but craziest).
I always think of her, and I keep to myself and my close group of friends. Other than that, I rarely get close to anyone. Bekah commented that I seem a lot more cheerful after knowing more people through Audition.
The virtual space is but a space. The true comminication between humans takes more than that. After stepping out of this space, it's almost the same as any other normal relationship. What is needed is communication from both sides.
I have been clear about my feelings and why I was upset. Now I'm waiting fer something from the other side. After all, I don't want any of my friendships to be composed of lop-sided efforts from one or few parties.
Which brings me to be unwillingly judgemental of certain people, who did not value the relationship as much as I did. They probably did value it, but the bonds eventually broke when it was clear that I was seeking something much deeper.
I don't like to be hypocritical or fake, and I know that there is a difference between that and the notion of "greater peace and harmony". I would like to think that in many cases, I have made my compromises, but I know that I don't always accomodate.
I am getting more and more tired as each minute passes. I hardly see a value in life, and little people share my thoughts on the value of inter-personal relationships. Even if I had the whole world and even if I knew everything there was to know, would I be happy?
I often think that many people don't love. Or... Maybe they do, just not as heavily as I do. Some find my love a treasure, others see it as a source of pressure. Along the way of life, people make their choices and decisions, they enter and leave other people's lives, they bring joy or suffering to self and others. I have left people's lives, as had others had left mine. Is it something mutual? Something inevitable?
We are but puny individuals who are struggling to (1) find our purpose in life, or (2) upholding what we think may be our purpose in life, or (3) live for the sake of living. What if I don't fall into anywhere? What if I am just lost?
What if I simply don't care?
I can't forsee a future. I don't sense any grandeur, shabbiness, bleakness. There is just nothing, just me and my off-beat musings. Who will know? Who will bother? Who will care?
Who will love me?
9/14/2008 06:45:00 PM
Thursday, September 11, 2008
一個像夏天一個像秋天
莫名其妙的回想着以前的种种，没由来地感动鼻酸。每当我听到这首歌，我都会很自然地想到你；每当我想到你，都会很自然地想起这首歌。
你还记得吗？那时候，我们肩并着肩步行着，你面带微笑地轻唱着这一首很适合我俩的歌。
我真的真的很庆幸，因为我能够拥有你这个朋友。你说我太容易感动也好，说我过于重视友情也好，可是我真的好爱你，谢谢你一直以来都把我当成挚友，谢谢你一直以来都是我生命中的一部分，谢谢你的陪伴你的关怀，谢谢你对我所代表的一切。
亲爱的情人、婉馨、 Bekah，谢谢你~
一個像夏天一個像秋天
第一次見面看你不太順眼
誰知道後來關係那麼密切
我們一個像夏天一個像秋天
卻總能把冬天變成了春天
妳拖我離開一場愛的風雪
我揹妳逃出一次夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後生命全改變
原來不是戀愛才有的情節
如果不是你我不會相信
朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把你冷凍結冰
你也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句
如果不是你我不會確定
朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的弦外之音 我的有口無心
我離不開Darling更離不開你
你了解我所有得意的東西
才常潑我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丟臉的事情
卻為我的美好形象保密
如果不是你我不會相信
朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把你冷凍結冰
你也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句
如果不是你我不會確定
朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的弦外之音 我的有口無心
我離不開Darling更離不開你
9/11/2008 12:11:00 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
What do you know?
It is not the first time you have done this.
First, you leaked out the family password to someone who was not in the guild. I scolded you and you didn't give a damn about it.
Next, you leaked out my contact details. You didn't mean it, but you did it anyway. You know you did wrong and you were not apologetic at all. The only apology I got on the following day, when and only when I demanded for it straight in your face.
Now, today, you leaked out my private password to everyone. There is a reason why I use a private password. But no, you did not respect me; no, you did not care, and even after you knew how furious I was, you ignored me, you disregarded me, you continued with your disrespect for me.
I don't understand. Is this how you treat your FRIEND? If you could disrespect me to such an extent, leaking out the things I TRUSTED you in... If this is the amount of effort you put into a relationship, do you really know what trust and faith in any relationship entail?
I shouldn't be surprised, or pissed, really, because this is already the third time you're doing this kind of thing to me.
But I am. Why? Because I cared. I assigned something special to my friendship with you. Too bad it's not recicprocated, too bad it's you. And you always complained about how anti-social I was, when you are insulting my feelings for you like this, time and again, never realising how much you hurt me by displacing my trust and faith in you.
What more can I say? What more can I do? It doesn't matter to you at all.
It never will.
9/10/2008 04:06:00 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
It is so goddamn fucking unfair.
Why must the whole world give such a big fuck about you?
After all these years, I am still stung so hard by the unfairness of it all.
They act as if you're an only child to them. And considering how your father loves to accuse me of being unfilial, and always going on and on about my sins and how it's totally unforgiveable; considering how your mother regards me as a crazy bitch, considering how the same two people can gush over you all the time, showering you with their love, care and concern, I KNOW that you ARE the only child in their eyes. They couldn't have made it more obvious.
Fine. One day, I will leave this house and conjure my own happy family. One day, I will be free.
Damn you all, the swines that ruined my childhood. Damn you all bitches and bastards. Damn you all. Just get out of my life. Fuck you.
9/08/2008 07:32:00 PM
Friday, September 05, 2008
KBOX KBOX KBOX AND CRAZY WOMEN!
Point #1: A lot of random photos so I'm not gonna bother about ordering them the right way. Freaking troublesome to do that on blogger.
Point #2: My sore throat worsened after kbox D: But I'm feeling better now
Point #3: There are lots of blurry photos because *certain people* tended to be over enthusiastic (in other words, it was hard to accomodate with mad women in the course of photo-taking).
Point #4: It was damn fun. :D <33333333
The only way to prevent capturing blur photos was to do it with flash. I tried that and I ended up with a RABID RABBIT OI HUI FANG. OMG I KNEW SHE WAS FROM OUTER SPACE. LOL!!!!
She was wearing my cardigan and molesting me with completely no sense of gratitude. Who saved her from the dying cold? WHO? WHO????
Darling and I <3333
She looked like she just got slapped. It was too chaotic, but chances were... we DID slap her. LOL
OHF Looked like she was in some kungfu (or boxing?) stance. Hahahahahahaha. Oei who you trying to punch? Just give up and go back home la. You will only end up getting pwned.... as usual. >:D lololol
Ophi's classic expression. LOL.
Jes <3333333
The text on the TV screen reads: 暂停. OHF!!!! STOPPPPPP!!!!!!
Whee~ <3
JES IS MINE RAWR~~~~ <333333
And finally, it's time for the most classic picture of all. My darling and I name this one:
"第三者"
Oei Fang, don't be so EXTRA can. ROFLMAO.
